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Adam dumped me because he is going to uni and can't see the point of a relationship, which is fine, he's got a point, but he gave me the impression he really wanted to go out with me. He sent me text messages stating what he wanted to do to me. He burned 4 CDs worth of Muse songs - I was going to burn Toxicity but I won't bother now. He kept going on about how he wanted to see me, how he really liked me, how beautiful I am. Well, that was a load of bullshit. He said enough things, but when it came to the crunch, he bottled out. I know this is a big step for me to talk about my private life, but here goes: an example of Adam's lying was that he kept going on about how he wanted to finger me and lick me out. Well, he got the chance when we were in a field across the Dee, with a pub in Boughton looking down on us, and he stuck his finger down my knickers, licked it and said I tasted horrible. That spoiled it a bit as we'd been getting on so well, as did the bit where Adam wanted me to suck him off. In a field. Where people walk past with their dogs. I said no. He tried to touch me between my legs, and I froze. Then later when we were walking back, he said he didn't want to go out with me because of uni. I started crying. All the way back I was as icy and sarcastic as I could be - one of the many characteristics I've inherited from my dad is an acidic tongue - and Adam nearly made me miss my fucking bus, and the driver got mad because I told him to wait.
Some socialist I am, huh? I should be emailing world leaders, demanding that they stop exploiting the Third World, writing angry letters and songs of protest, checking out Oxfam's website, and here I am, moping over my ex. I have to admit that when I saw Takesy and his tiny girlfriend Jilly (see below) I felt sad and jealous because it reminded me of Pete, and Adam, and a certain other person who won't be named. Mainly Pete as I started going out with him after a night out where Takesy had brought him and Jilly. Wham, bam, thank you Takesy.
Fuck you, Adam. I know you're not reading this but fuck you anyway.
In other news: my job at RSK ENSR (an environmental company in a boring little village called Helsby, near Warrington) is ending on Monday (bad, but then I wouldn't want to do it in the long run as it's pretty stressful, and I knew I was only going to be there 2 weeks anyway); I have a new job in Tarporley as a secretary (good); it pays £6 an hour (even better); Nicky and offspring are still here (very bad); I have finally stopped hating Emily (good); Takesy is home, has purple hair and had a fantastic time at Glasto (very good); he is also back with Jilly (good - well, they were such a sweet couple, even if they spent half their time trying to eat each other's faces); Kirstie has left Oxfam (bad); Barry White is dead (bad); I have discovered the joys of Roobarb (good); Melanie and Andy came into Oxfam today and Andy has a job in a cheese shop (good); Gina is 22 in 2 weeks (good); she has lent me Fight Club (good, hopefully); I have anew computer with sound (EXCELLENT!); Franny Griffiths answered 2 of my questions in the Space interviews on the website (wowee).
Altogether now: "Wanana neow! Wanana neow! Ba ba ba ba ba!" (This is me trying to sing Roobarb.)


Jul. 8th, 2003 06:48 am (UTC)
Ugh....after reading that i've decided Adam sounds like my ex. Better off without him.