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I am now a single girly

The moment I have been dreading has finaly arrived. Owen dumped me for the following reasons:
1) He is weirded out by my religion
2) He isn't ready for a relationship
3) I have too many neuroses
I am so gutted. My face is now covered in cuts, as are my arms. I feel cheated and used and sad. I have been crying for the past two hours. I screamed my head off at Owen, called him names, scratched my arms, collapsed onto his bed and couldn't get up. My eyes are red and my face is a bloody acne'd mess. Mum, Rob and Miriam have all been amazing - Miriam urges me to get help. She has a point. Rob, meanwhile, said (and the spelling is his own, naturally): "Dont b stupid carry on, suicide is a quitters way out. U r not a quitter. If u need sum 1 2 talk 2 i am always there. Dont do it!"
God I love him.
And worse - I am going to Radiohead alone. I'll look out for my little bro there, maybe he can cheer me up. The worst of it is, Owen is so nice I still want to be friends with him. When I asked him if he was going to erase me from his life, he said he wasn't and that he still wanted to be friends. He does like me, just not in that way. So anyone who is reading this, if you want to call him a cunt, don't bother. He isn't.
The only things that would make me happy:
1) Radiohead play a blinder.
2) Dr Philpotts gives me an 80% for my translation.
3) Nicky and Georgia emigrate to Afghanistan. (This may not happen.)


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Nov. 22nd, 2003 08:58 pm (UTC)
*hugs* V sad to hear that.

I'm sure Radiohead will be fab though. Thank god for good music and gigs :-)
Dec. 4th, 2003 12:05 pm (UTC)
Oh no...I didn't know about that. I did that over my ex once...it isn't worth it and it makes you feel shit after. Better to throw stuff at people. I should have thrown stuff at my ex. Lots of it.
I hope you feel better:(
P.S. I'll update my journal soon....too much college work!
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